I have always had a fondness for Poe's writing. Yeah, I can be a tad macarbe that way. I remember in 7th grade getting to go on a field trip to the University of Virginia and being in awe at seeing the dorm room that Poe used during his brief stay there:
I was a lit geek then. What can I say, not many 7th graders were well versed in Shakespeare, Poe, and Bronte to name a few. LOL
Most people think of "The Raven" or "The Fall of the House of Usher" when they think of Poe's works, but my favorite has always been "The Tell-Tale Heart." Yeah, I am weird that way!
For your pleasure:
The Tell-Tale Heart
By Edgar Allen Poe
TRUE! nervous, very, very dreadfully nervous I had
been and am; but why WILL you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened my
senses, not destroyed, not dulled them. Above all was the sense of hearing
acute. I heard all things in the heaven and in the earth. I heard many things
in hell. How then am I mad? Hearken! and observe how healthily, how calmly, I
can tell you the whole story.
It is impossible to say how first the idea entered
my brain, but, once conceived, it haunted me day and night. Object there was
none. Passion there was none. I loved the old man. He had never wronged me. He
had never given me insult. For his gold I had no desire. I think it was his
eye! Yes, it was this! One of his eyes resembled that of a vulture -- a pale
blue eye with a film over it. Whenever it fell upon me my blood ran cold, and
so by degrees, very gradually, I made up my mind to take the life of the
old man, and thus rid myself of the eye for ever.
Now this is the point. You fancy me mad. Madmen know
nothing. But you should have seen me. You should have seen how wisely I
proceeded -- with what caution -- with what foresight, with what dissimulation,
I went to work! I was never kinder to the old man than during the whole
week before I killed him. And every night about midnight I turned the latch of
his door and opened it oh, so gently! And then, when I had made an opening
sufficient for my head, I put in a dark lantern all closed, closed so that no
light shone out, and then I thrust in my head. Oh, you would have laughed to
see how cunningly I thrust it in! I moved it slowly, very, very slowly, so that
I might not disturb the old man's sleep. It took me an hour to place my whole
head within the opening so far that I could see him as he lay upon his bed. Ha!
would a madman have been so wise as this? And then when my head was well in the
room I undid the lantern cautiously -- oh, so cautiously -- cautiously (for the
hinges creaked), I undid it just so much that a single thin ray fell upon the
vulture eye. And this I did for seven long nights, every night just at
midnight, but I found the eye always closed, and so it was impossible to do the
work, for it was not the old man who vexed me but his Evil Eye. And every
morning, when the day broke, I went boldly into the chamber and spoke
courageously to him, calling him by name in a hearty tone, and inquiring how he
had passed the night. So you see he would have been a very profound old man,
indeed , to suspect that every night, just at twelve, I looked in upon him
while he slept.
Upon the eighth night I was more than usually
cautious in opening the door. A watch's minute hand moves more quickly than did
mine. Never before that night had I felt the extent of my own powers, of my
sagacity. I could scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To think that there
I was opening the door little by little, and he not even to dream of my secret
deeds or thoughts. I fairly chuckled at the idea, and perhaps he heard me, for
he moved on the bed suddenly as if startled. Now you may think that I drew back
-- but no. His room was as black as pitch with the thick darkness (for the
shutters were close fastened through fear of robbers), and so I knew that he
could not see the opening of the door, and I kept pushing it on steadily,
steadily.
I had my head in, and was about to open the lantern,
when my thumb slipped upon the tin fastening , and the old man sprang up in the
bed, crying out, "Who's there?"
I kept quite still and said nothing. For a whole
hour I did not move a muscle, and in the meantime I did not hear him lie down.
He was still sitting up in the bed, listening; just as I have done night after
night hearkening to the death watches in the wall.
Presently, I heard a slight groan, and I knew it was
the groan of mortal terror. It was not a groan of pain or of grief -- oh, no!
It was the low stifled sound that arises from the bottom of the soul when
overcharged with awe. I knew the sound well. Many a night, just at midnight,
when all the world slept, it has welled up from my own bosom, deepening, with
its dreadful echo, the terrors that distracted me. I say I knew it well. I knew
what the old man felt, and pitied him although I chuckled at heart. I knew that
he had been lying awake ever since the first slight noise when he had turned in
the bed. His fears had been ever since growing upon him. He had been trying to
fancy them causeless, but could not. He had been saying to himself, "It is
nothing but the wind in the chimney, it is only a mouse crossing the floor,"
or, "It is merely a cricket which has made a single chirp." Yes he
has been trying to comfort himself with these suppositions ; but he had found
all in vain. ALL IN VAIN, because Death in approaching him had stalked with his
black shadow before him and enveloped the victim. And it was the mournful
influence of the unperceived shadow that caused him to feel, although he
neither saw nor heard, to feel the presence of my head within the room.
When I had waited a long time very patiently without
hearing him lie down, I resolved to open a little -- a very, very little
crevice in the lantern. So I opened it -- you cannot imagine how stealthily,
stealthily -- until at length a single dim ray like the thread of the spider
shot out from the crevice and fell upon the vulture eye.
It was open, wide, wide open, and I grew furious as
I gazed upon it. I saw it with perfect distinctness -- all a dull blue with a
hideous veil over it that chilled the very marrow in my bones, but I could see
nothing else of the old man's face or person, for I had directed the ray as if
by instinct precisely upon the damned spot.
And now have I not told you that what you mistake
for madness is but over-acuteness of the senses? now, I say, there came to my
ears a low, dull, quick sound, such as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton.
I knew that sound well too. It was the beating of the old man's heart. It
increased my fury as the beating of a drum stimulates the soldier into courage.
But even yet I refrained and kept still. I scarcely
breathed. I held the lantern motionless. I tried how steadily I could maintain
the ray upon the eye. Meantime the hellish tattoo of the heart increased. It
grew quicker and quicker, and louder and louder, every instant. The old man's
terror must have been extreme! It grew louder, I say, louder every moment! --
do you mark me well? I have told you that I am nervous: so I am. And now at the
dead hour of the night, amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so strange
a noise as this excited me to uncontrollable terror. Yet, for some minutes
longer I refrained and stood still. But the beating grew louder, louder! I
thought the heart must burst. And now a new anxiety seized me -- the sound
would be heard by a neighbour!
The old man's hour had come! With a loud yell, I
threw open the lantern and leaped into the room. He shrieked once -- once only.
In an instant I dragged him to the floor, and pulled the heavy bed over him. I
then smiled gaily, to find the deed so far done. But for many minutes the heart
beat on with a muffled sound. This, however, did not vex me; it would not be
heard through the wall. At length it ceased. The old man was dead. I removed
the bed and examined the corpse. Yes, he was stone, stone dead. I placed my
hand upon the heart and held it there many minutes. There was no pulsation. He
was stone dead. His eye would trouble me no more.
If still you think me mad, you will think so no
longer when I describe the wise precautions I took for the concealment of the
body. The night waned, and I worked hastily, but in silence.
I took up three planks from the flooring of the
chamber, and deposited all between the scantlings. I then replaced the boards
so cleverly so cunningly, that no human eye -- not even his -- could have
detected anything wrong. There was nothing to wash out -- no stain of any kind
-- no blood-spot whatever. I had been too wary for that.
When I had made an end of these labours, it was four
o'clock -- still dark as midnight. As the bell sounded the hour, there came a
knocking at the street door. I went down to open it with a light heart, -- for
what had I now to fear? There entered three men, who introduced themselves,
with perfect suavity, as officers of the police. A shriek had been heard by a
neighbour during the night; suspicion of foul play had been aroused;
information had been lodged at the police office, and they (the officers) had
been deputed to search the premises.
I smiled, -- for what had I to fear? I bade the
gentlemen welcome. The shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The old man, I
mentioned, was absent in the country. I took my visitors all over the house. I
bade them search -- search well. I led them, at length, to his chamber. I
showed them his treasures, secure, undisturbed. In the enthusiasm of my
confidence, I brought chairs into the room, and desired them here to rest from
their fatigues, while I myself, in the wild audacity of my perfect triumph,
placed my own seat upon the very spot beneath which reposed the corpse of the
victim.
The officers were satisfied. My MANNER had convinced
them. I was singularly at ease. They sat and while I answered cheerily, they chatted
of familiar things. But, ere long, I felt myself getting pale and wished them
gone. My head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my ears; but still they sat,
and still chatted. The ringing became more distinct : I talked more freely to
get rid of the feeling: but it continued and gained definitiveness -- until, at
length, I found that the noise was NOT within my ears.
No doubt I now grew VERY pale; but I talked more
fluently, and with a heightened voice. Yet the sound increased -- and what
could I do? It was A LOW, DULL, QUICK SOUND -- MUCH SUCH A SOUND AS A WATCH
MAKES WHEN ENVELOPED IN COTTON. I gasped for breath, and yet the officers heard
it not. I talked more quickly, more vehemently but the noise steadily
increased. I arose and argued about trifles, in a high key and with violent
gesticulations; but the noise steadily increased.
Why WOULD they not be gone? I
paced the floor to and fro with heavy strides, as if excited to fury by the
observations of the men, but the noise steadily increased. O God! what COULD I
do? I foamed -- I raved -- I swore! I swung the chair upon which I had been
sitting, and grated it upon the boards, but the noise arose over all and
continually increased. It grew louder -- louder -- louder! And still the men
chatted pleasantly , and smiled. Was it possible they heard not? Almighty God!
-- no, no? They heard! -- they suspected! -- they KNEW! -- they were making a
mockery of my horror! -- this I thought, and this I think. But anything was
better than this agony! Anything was more tolerable than this derision! I could
bear those hypocritical smiles no longer! I felt that I must scream or die! --
and now -- again -- hark! louder! louder! louder! LOUDER! --
"Villains!" I shrieked, "dissemble no
more! I admit the deed! -- tear up the planks! -- here, here! -- it is the
beating of his hideous heart!"
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